Relationship priorities

I have long wanted to quit my job and go all-in on my coaching business. I finally did it about a month ago. I’m also in a new relationship that I’m having a lot of anxiety about (I’m working through it…). But much of this anxiety is coming from the fact that our relationship life feels so busy – yeah we’re doing fun things – mostly traveling all over the place! It’s fun, yes. But it’s not exactly aligned with my priorities right now, and it’s giving me a lot of anxiety. I’m feeling like I don’t know how to keep my self-care and priorities and also be in this relationship. I feel like I don’t even have space right now for my own self-care practices, since I’m basically nomadic. I want to know how I can prioritize building my business WHILE also being in a relationship where there are lots of things going on. I know all the things we are doing are “fun”, but I feel like I need to focus on my priorities and I feel like they are secondary.

Like, we have this two month trip through Europe, middle east and africa planned. I feel like I should be more excited (which is a thought). I feel like I want to start doing my business NOW. I feel like I don’t have the space to focus on my business. I feel like things with him are too busy and move at too fast of a pace. I feel like my priorities are going to get tossed to the side. I feel like I don’t know how to be as deep with my SELF spiritually when I’m with him. I guess, ultimately, I feel like I need SPACE to be creative. But I can see that is a thought that results in me pushing him away.

I guess I don’t even really know what to do with this, all I know is that I have a TON of anxiety about it, and it keeps on coming up over and over again.

What am I even supposed to do with all of this information? Sometimes I just feel paralyzed by fear and want to back out of the relationship because I feel like I’m going to be engulfed by his priorities. I know I’ll feel better with my own space and dedicated hours in which I am focused on my work. He agreed and said we could build me an office in his house – which I appreciate. I just feel like sometimes I can’t focus in relationship, and need to be by myself – but at the same time, I WANT to be in a relationship and I DO think that I spend too much time wasting time researching and not actually putting any content for my business out into the world.

Where would you suggest I go with this? I’m having a lot of anxiety and while I’m trying not to buffer, it’s starting to happen again.