reply on emberassed

so yesterday i had the same thing again.
my bf was sitting on his computer and i just wanted to get up and stand in front of him jsut with my bra.
but i couldn’t do it. something was holding me back. it’s like a thing i feel in my chest and neck.
and i tried to look at my thoughts. but its really hard to find them. can you suggest what to say to myself to find the thoughts?
here is what i came up with:
he is not going to take my seriously. If i’m emerassed i’m not going all in and then he won’t take me serious and me neither.
that moment where i would not be 100% in it and i would do a misarble job and then my boyfriend would comment on that.
i think thats it. i would feel embarassed.

thanks for helping with your answer!

big hug