Still struggling

Brooke- I’m still spinning about my Impossible goal. My weight is at its all time high today but I know losing the weight isn’t impossible. I’m going to get it done. But what if I don’t. I’ve been saying I’m going to get it done for 5 years. Still have not despite resolving to do so many times. I change my thoughts and be the super star version of myself for several days and then life happens and my brain talks myself right out of my focus.
The weight issue feels like a symbol and gateway to everything else. Should I stick with miracle mornings for 365 days as my impossible goal and know that the weight will go along with that? I’m confused and feeling lost.