Thought model. can’t figure out an intentional thought that you work

I am in a mastermind to develop my business. I am falling behind in the modules and feel defeated and overwhelmed.
My unintentional model:
C: Mastermind
T: everybody is ahead of me
F: defeated
A: procrastinate, don’t show up for calls, don’t participate in FB group, don’t ask for feedback
R: i am behind and not progressing

Can you guide me to find a intentional thought that will get me going.