Weightloss and wanting to look good

I know we must love our bodies now.  What’s tripping me up is that I want to lose weight and look amazing and be proud of myself, yet I live in a place in my head where I want to lose weight and I don’t love the way I look.  It’s actually uncomfortable.  My clothes don’t fit.  I’m way overweight and I don’t see how me loving my body this way is helpful.  And honestly I’ve tried for a year to love it and just don’t.  With all this body positivity — I feel it’s counterintuitive and keeping me stuck exactly where I am.  I’m at least 50 lbs. overweight.  It’s not healthy.  Help me reconcile where I need to be.  I’m trying to write my “why” list but it’s not motivating me enough to do the right thing.