Six months ago I was lucky enough to start a new profession. It linked to my previous profession, but with much more room for growth. At first I was grateful, highly motivated, inspired and looking forward to what the future holds. The job is rewarding but definitely comes with its share of stresses. It also scares me knowing that my role and responsibilities will advance in the next couple of years.
Recently, I’ve been working at home due to the COVID situation. I’ve been able to start and end my workday earlier than usual, in oder to have time with my family who are at home as well. In gaining this extra family time, my previous gratefulness and motivation has turned into resentment and fear. Resentment and fear that once this COVID situation is over, I will have to go back to the stresses of my normal workday, resulting in less family time.
1) COVID situation or not, I’m trying to figure out how I can make the best use of my time in order to ensure that working doesn’t leave me feeling robbed of family time and the things we enjoy.
2 ) Having an income is important to me. It helps me feel secure that we can afford to have the lifestyle we enjoy having. I’m trying to figure out what I can say to myself that will help me feel motivated without the resentment I’m feeling now.